Apr
28
2011

So, tomorrow is my last day with dianette in me for a week. Scared much? Yes. Very much so. It wouldn’t bother me, if I knew it wasn’t going to hurt like last time. Last time, I couldn’t sleep, would have to fear for a rupture every day of the week, and have no energy at all. Mood swings too. Add to this that my best friend of 6 years will now not speak to me because his drinking problem is kick starting again, and I’m the only one who’ll tell him it’s not just a drop in the bucket… it’s going to be a very stressful, painful, lonely week. With exams coming up, I can’t really afford another week like this, but since my scans and so on coincide with when my next period is due, I /have/ to do this now. I can’t run a pack together now.

I think if I get through this week without killing someone or myself, I will view myself as a far stronger person than I thought.

I also need to get back on the low gi horse. I need some more tasty recipes, but I hit a mental block for cooking, along with loss of appetite with all that’s been going on with my .. ex-best friend I suppose, since I don’t see them changing their mind.

Yeah, this whole year can kiss my butt.

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Apr
21
2011

Not going to lie, totally just ate wholemeal olive bread and pumpkin seeds all day. Baaad. Going to have to get back on this horse though, I’m starting to feel it a bit. I need to find some recipes or.. maybe even ready made things that I don’t have to guilt over, or spend ages cooking. Some days I just don’t have enough energy.

Also, sort of um.. nervous. I have a 4cm cyst and a cyst that hasn’t been measured. Can cysts shrink away without rupturing once you’re on the pill? Or do they have to rupture?

Apr
16
2011

Tracing my PCOS - thanks Dad..?!

So when I spoke to my gyno, he was very surprised that with my mum’s side being about 90% women, none of them had PCOS. He didn’t ask about my Dad’s side, but with there only being one woman on that side of the family, I suppose it’s fair enough that he didn’t enquire much, since she doesn’t have PCOS either.

However, after reading up and around, I stumbled on a description of a possible male version of PCOS that doctors were considering. The symptoms are slightly different (no ovaries, go figure), but funnily enough, my Dad matches all of them, and doctors haven’t been able to treat the symptoms he’s been getting for years and years now.

I ran it past him last night, and he got his curious face on. He seemed pretty intregued, but I think he didn’t really want to look into it a lot further. Which you know, that’s just Dad all over. Not going to push it or anything, of course, I know first hand now that it’s not cool to have someone say “Hey, you might have this nasty thing.”, but.. I guess I’ll nudge every now and again. His sleeping, depression, central obesity and blood pressure are all very bad, so I think it would be worth nudging him to see a specialist and maybe get checked out. I think in males it’s more to do with insulin resistance, but.. well, who knows. The whole thing seems pretty theoretical from what I read, but if it’s a thing then.. yeah, I’d say I got it from Dad, rather than mum.

Thought I’d post this, since I’ve only just heard about it. Any of you guys think this could be true?

Apr
6
2011

HO-ly….

Too much info warning!

Apparently it’s normal for the first time on birth control but OH MY GOD chunks of me fell out. Not blood. Flesh. Ah! Not what I expected to see. xD I had a very pale five minutes there.

But at least now I know what my endometrium looks like. :l

Apr
6
2011

First period with Dianette!

Okay, I’ve already had a bit of a flail over the concept of knowing when I’ll get a period. But, as of about half an hour ago, it’s heeeere~! *parties* I have never been so happy to bleed. xD And, warning for too much information here: it’s a lot more…. I don’t know. More organised. xD If periods can be organised. There wasn’t any “Hey, streak of blood in discharge. Wait a week or two kay?” it’s just proper period, instantly. I’m so chuffed. :3 I realise this is probably a bit weird to a lot of people reading things, but considering I’ve never been on birth control pills before this, and I’ve never had a regular, normal period, I’m very fascinated that yes, my body actually can work properly with a little extra help, even with PCOS.

I don’t even care that I need to do my hair removal stuff on my face today anymore, this has made my day. xD

Apr
5
2011

Reblogged from mypcos :

Homie's PCOS blog~: Managed to try and sleep on my side without supporting my tummy well...

mypcos:

skibop:

mypcos:

skibop:

Managed to try and sleep on my side without supporting my tummy well enough. Big mistake! The moment I moved I felt like I was on the verge of a cyst rupturing. Considering the quack said the one he found (I feel two) is 4cm big, I was scared. Thankfully, after staying up until 3am motionless and…

 I ruptured cysts by blowing my nose :/ How you considered ovarian drilling?

Oh my… that made me cross my legs, not gonna lie. I honestly don’t know much about ovarian drilling, I think I assumed it was a way to help get pregnant, but… I’ve not looked into it at all.

Hey, can I ask, when they rupture, is it something that’s hospital worthy? I keep reading different things, it seems to be common, yet all the advice I read is “hey, go to the hospital”. xD Just so I know.

 Ovarian drilling isn’t bad- they go through your belly button and drill 4-20 holes in your ovaries to get rid of the cysts- it help eleviate other symptoms as well. It’s not a cure but it helps a lot and if you start and continue with a healthy lifestyle most symptoms won’t come back. If your like me- you wait untill it’s days after it ruptured to go to the hospital- they will do a vaginal ultrasound and all depending if there’s any fluid-which they need a full bladder to see if there is- but you won’t have a full bladder since they requested you to pee in a cup so they can check for pregnancy -_- It’s a huge mess. It’s rare to find someone who knows what they are doing with PCOS. Bottom line- if you can’t handle day to day activties and can not stand the pain go to the hospital. Remember to be firm about why you went there for so will get the treatment you want and need-most times I’ve been sent home with bed rest-heating pad and tylonol[I’m a horrible speller sorry]( which is bad for women with PCOS since we are prone to liver disease).

I thought as much, it sounds drastic but.. I think I’d probably go for it if these meds don’t do much. I was diagnosed properly last month so I’ve got a little while to go before I can say if it’s working or not. This is my first time on the ‘off days’ with the pill, so I’m a bit nervy. Thankfully I’m not sexually active so I don’t get messed around as much with scans.. well, sort of.

I’m really noticing that there seems to be very little understanding with PCOS! Even the ‘specialist’ I was referred to tried to example my cysts manually through my abdomen - this was after I told him that I was in a lot of pain and walking was sometimes hard because of it, and I’d been avoiding anything touching my ovaries if possible. :l I tried to let him but ended up just shoving him away nearly in tears because I was so scared of the pain from him touching. xD I mean.. surely it’d be on his radar that that shit hurts, right? Aparently not. I’m quickly coming to the understanding that it’s “No PCOS, no opinion.”

Apr
5
2011

Reblogged from mypcos :

Homie's PCOS blog~: Managed to try and sleep on my side without supporting my tummy well...

mypcos:

skibop:

Managed to try and sleep on my side without supporting my tummy well enough. Big mistake! The moment I moved I felt like I was on the verge of a cyst rupturing. Considering the quack said the one he found (I feel two) is 4cm big, I was scared. Thankfully, after staying up until 3am motionless and…

 I ruptured cysts by blowing my nose :/ How you considered ovarian drilling?

Oh my… that made me cross my legs, not gonna lie. I honestly don’t know much about ovarian drilling, I think I assumed it was a way to help get pregnant, but… I’ve not looked into it at all.

Hey, can I ask, when they rupture, is it something that’s hospital worthy? I keep reading different things, it seems to be common, yet all the advice I read is “hey, go to the hospital”. xD Just so I know.

Apr
5
2011

Managed to try and sleep on my side without supporting my tummy well enough. Big mistake! The moment I moved I felt like I was on the verge of a cyst rupturing. Considering the quack said the one he found (I feel two) is 4cm big, I was scared. Thankfully, after staying up until 3am motionless and on my back, it calmed down xD

I’m off dianette this week since it’s supposedly period time, and I’ve noticed my pains have gotten far worse. I can’t wait until I can go back on them on Thursday. It’s kind of scary.. I’m really hoping they clear up. I don’t know how possible that is though. I want to be able to get out and do things again, without fear of rupturing a cyst. (I think that might be what happened after my ultrasound)

Apr
3
2011

Weightloss things

I want to start this by saying that I wasn’t really aiming to lose any weight, but with a new and healthier diet I suppose that’s usually the bi-product.

Trying to explain to my mum that PCOS makes it difficult to shift any extra weight you put on (I was around 10 stone before my meds and low gi diet recommended by the quack. I know, not overweight, I was pretty much in the middle of my BMI, maybe towards the bigger side of normal. But still normal), is not easy. When I was younger I always tended towards the bigger side, then lost a decent amount of weight when I started dancing at 10, and put it all back on at around 13 or so, even though nothing really changed (my guess is maybe that was PCOS related). Over the past month or so though, I’ve lost the best part of a stone, so I’m now 9 stone. Still within normal range on the BMI, but my mum’s all “D:” over it because.. I don’t think she expected any change like that. Which I sort of did, because no matter what I did before I was pretty much stuck at 10 stone. *sways* No idea why I’m typing this out. xD I realise that’s.. nothing for a lot of people, but it’s annoying that I’m quite happy to have lost that little extra that made me feel really sluggish, and everyone’s looking at me sideways. I’m not underweight, and I don’t want to be (believe me, I’m keeping a close eye on things just incase this really isn’t a good diet/med for me to be on), but I’m happy with where I am. It’s closer to the weight of the other girls my size that I know, and I generally feel better. I wish people would share in that rather than tell me “that was too fast. :l”.

Mar
30
2011

Reblogged from scrittrice-persempre :

I’m not being funny, but.. I have one pill left in this strip, then I know I have 7 days of period (in theory). You have no idea how happy this makes me. xD I’ve never been able to even say the month my period was going to come, let alone the day. This is crazy to me.
tl;dr PCOS shortie raves about blood.

I’m not being funny, but.. I have one pill left in this strip, then I know I have 7 days of period (in theory). You have no idea how happy this makes me. xD I’ve never been able to even say the month my period was going to come, let alone the day. This is crazy to me.

tl;dr PCOS shortie raves about blood.

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